I dont have a lot of close friends by design maybe a handful of truely good ecent close folks and rather not deal w/ “acquaintenances” really because small talk is such a drain. Amongst my friends I am considered funny/witty/life of the party…and a bit of a planner for our activities. The wierd part is that I am always dreaming about being ditched…ditched by my best friend…boyfriend…group of friends what have you…whatever the dream usually a vacation of sorts I am always left behind or looked over or forgotten….I’m 37yr old woman who everyone thinks is so on top of her s***…why do I still have these insecure high school dreams….sheesh!