After I touched my brothers hard p****, he just laid there with the pillow on his face and I pulled it up and down feeling as much of it as I could because we were never that close and he let me do it. It was like bonding to me because he didn’t hug me anymore and he always ignored me but he was letting me touch him. It was like a hug to a 6 year old so I just kept doing it as long as he’d let me. He squirmed and was breathing heavy under the pillow and I licked the head of my big brothers p**** like daddy had told me to do before and my brother squirmed even more to where his body arched and his p**** slid in my mouth. His fit better and I liked it way better than my daddy’s. I sucked on it and played with it in my mouth and he held the pillow on his face with one hand and put his other hand on the back of my head and he pushed me down further where his hard p**** hit the back of my throat. The longer I did that the more it slid down my throat and he pushed it into me more and his p**** was almost all the way down my throat. I felt his p**** growing bigger and twitching in my throat and then I felt him shooting his warm white stuff straight into the middle of my throat and I felt like I was drowning but he pushed my head down all the way to where his nuts were on my chin and he came deep inside of my throat. When he finished he pulled my head off and I gasped for air and choked on the c** stuck in my throat. He said “Don’t tell anyone or I’ll kill you f*****.” And then he got in his bed and went to sleep. I loved that my brother and I had a secret like that. I loved how it felt like we were bonding and that he loved me for a moment. I loved that my big brother let me s*** his p**** and him squirming like I made him feel really good. I didn’t understand what I was doing, but I understood that it made me feel loved for a moment while he was pushing his hard p**** down my throat. So after that I tried to do it as much as possible for that feeling of false love. I found that love from his best friend Aaron who was a year older than him and he called me a f** once when we were drinking my daddy’s alcohol. We had took some to the barn to drink it and we got dizzy and everything was funny and Aaron had his gym shorts on and no shirt like me and my brother did, but bubba went inside saying he felt sick and laid in the bed so me and Aaron stayed in the barn feeling amazing on my daddy’s drinks. Aaron was stumbling around and he put his arms around my neck pulling me in and telling me not to get a gf cuz they just end up hurting you. And he said that I should just let them s*** my d*** and let that be over with. And I blushed because I knew what girls did with guys but why did I? And I started to realize that maybe it was wrong. But then he said “You know.. You’re a pretty boy. You’re not gonna have a problem with the girls. They’ll probably s*** your d*** whenever you want.” And then I asked “How many girls sucked yours?” And he told me that there were too many to count. “I can’t remember all of them, but I even had a gay friend try to s*** my d*** once.” And when I looked at him and he looked at me he said “Oh s***, don’t tell anyone I said that. I’m just drunk..” and I said “Did he swallow the white stuff?” And he said “Sperm? Sure. I guess he did. I was drunk and don’t really remember.” And I noticed his shorts started to stick up. His p**** had gotten hard talking about blowjobs. “Is your p**** hard?” I asked and he laughed and looked down and said “I guess it is. It gets hard all the time. Don’t yours?” And I said “I guess, but mines small. Yours pokes out and I can see it. You can’t see mine poking out.” And he said “Well that’s cuz mines big as f***.” And I asked “How big?” And he said “Don’t tell anyone I showed you but..” and he pulled his shorts down where his p**** came out and his was a lot different than my brothers and daddy’s. “Yours looks different than bubbas.” And he laughed and asked “You’ve seen your brothers d***?” And I said “Yeah. A couple of times and it was hard last time and when I asked him if I could touch it and he said no. . .” And he cut me off mid sentence and asked “You tried to touch your brothers d***?” And laughed and I said “I did touch it. It was huge like yours.” And he said “Is his bigger than mine?” And I said “I don’t know..” and I reached over and grabbed his p**** and it was thick. It had more skin on it and his p**** was curved. He laughed when I grabbed it and said “That feels kinda good lil bubba.” And I squeezed it and some clear stuff came out and he said “Oh s***, I’m pre-c******.” And I asked what it was and he said “It’s like sperm.. Just clear.” And I played with it with my fingers and he squirmed and said “That’s gonna make me bust if you keep doing that.” And he leaned back on the chair and I kept playing with it. He watched me play with his p**** and then I asked “What’s a b******* feel like?” And he said “Oh man.. It feels really good. Like the best thing a guy can do it nut. A warm mouth on your d*** feels amazing man.” And I leaned in and licked his p**** to taste the clear stuff and he asked “Are you gay?” And I said “I don’t know.” And he said “Do you wanna s*** my d***?” And I said “kinda.” And he said “S*** man, I’ll let ya.” And I leaned in and licked his p**** more and then he said “Nah man just s*** it.” And he pushed my head on it. His sick slid right into my mouth and then down my throat. He squirmed and moaned and held my head there as he pushed his d*** in and out of my throat. He said “S*** bro I’m gonna c** so fast.” And he held my head still and he pushed his d*** as deep as it could go down my throat and then I felt his warm white stuff shooting into my throat so deep it felt like it was in my chest. “Ahh, f*** bro, I’m c******” and he moaned as he shot all of his sperm inside of my throat. He leaned up and said “Damn you gonna have to do that again.” And he laughed and grabbed another drink and we drink some more before going to bed. He slept with me that night.