I like this person so much I don’t know how to explain it but they speak to me for a certain time then disappear for couple of months then come back and talk to me again. Talking to them makes me so happy and so myself ??? And the second they disappear it ruins my day and I just can’t seem to be happy until couple weeks go by and then I start to forget about it a bit and then the cycle starts again they talk to me again I feel happy then they disappear I don’t know what to do I don’t want to stop talking to them but I hate myself and my life so so much the second they disappear without saying anything. I can’t even bring it up to them cos it just feels weird. I love this person so much that I’m willing to continue talking to them like this even if it’s only for couple days every few months / year but it just hurts being like this.