I hope I’ll be able to feel ok.
I do not feel good living. Since my childhood it felt like a chore. Like I must do it, because my mom birthed me. I love her and my family. I want them to be happy. And I want to feel happy too. Genuinely happy with living.
If I feel happy I’ll not be so tired of everything, at least I hope so. I want to smile genuinely and not forcefully. I really want to feel happy.
I am actively trying. I try to drink water. Try to be honest with my friends and family, except for killing pyself part. I have so much great in my life.
Why am I living such a good life if I am not able to be happy with it?
I think my only worth us in making others happy, while being miserable. But even if I made others miserable I wouldn’t be happy. I want everyone to be happy. I wish i would be happy too why the f*** am i such a disgusting f****** thing
Haha ok that was a lot thanks
I hope everyone who feels awful and bad will feel better soon. Guys let’s prove that we can be happy
Sorry for my awful grammar
Have a good day