Okay so this is a weird one… I have to keep this a secret from my circle of friends, but I can’t NOT tell someone about it, so here goes.

My (18f) best friend is a guy (18m). He’s completely straight, but we’ve been strictly plutonic friends and practically inseparable since around 4th grade. I’ve had boyfriends, he’s had girlfriends, but we always stayed close friends. So now, it’s looking pretty clear that we’re going to college across the country from each other. We haven’t spent more than a few days apart at a time since we were kids, so this will be a huge life change in many ways for both of us.

So this past Saturday night, he came over to hang out like always. We had several drinks and after a while, he said he wanted to talk to me about something he’d been pondering. First off, he told me he’s still a virgin. That was a surprise, because he recently split with a girl he’d been seeing for a few months, and I was sure they had slept together…but no, he said they never went all the way.

So he goes on to tell me that if I’m down for it, he’d very much like for me to be his first. He said it would be more special to him if it were me, for two reasons..one personal, and one superficial. First, because I’m his only close friend that he trusts, and that would make it mean a lot more. Second, (HIS words) I’m legit the most physically attractive girl he knows, and it’d be awesome if his first time was with the hottest girl he’s ever met.

I told him I’d think about it, but I’m already 99.9% sure I’m gonna do it. I’ve only been with two guys myself (a one night stand with a much older guy I met online, and then a boyfriend I was with for like 6 months). Plus I’m on the pill, so I do believe I’ll let him hit it raw and finish inside of me as well.