I’m sorry we ended things the way we did. But truly you pained me. I loved you and somedays I still feel I do. I know we weren’t perfect. I was needy and selfish sometimes. You were cold and apathetic. I’m struggling to accept everything because well I’m angry. I’m so angry at you but I really cant blame you. Im more just upset that I lost everyone around me because of the situation. Because we were both emotionally immature and cared more about ourselves and our feelings. 2 years later and it still bugs me. You were a very large part of my life and I struggle to make ammends with myself over it. I’m trying to move on but I find myself thinking about you. Wondering if you ever think of me. Be it negative or positive. Are things any different without me? Are you happier? Or are you struggling too? Part of me wishes you are in pain. I wish you lost all your friends too. I wish you lost your sense of belonging. I wish for the pain you caused me. But at the same time I dont want to hate. I dont want to be angry at you anymore. I dont want to live in fear of my future because of the regrets of my past. Idk what I’m getting at anymore… I just want you to know that I miss you and I’m sorry things happened the way they did. I know we could’ve been better.