I feel completely heartbroken, anxious, and sad all the time. I’m in such a horrible, toxic cycle. I can’t eat, I can’t sit still. I cheated on my boyfriend and when he found out he hit me and abused me. We stayed together but split up a little while later – he said he couldn’t trust me. We’re talking again now after a few months and I can’t shake the feeling that he’s going to leave me again, or be nasty, or worse. I love him so much and just want to be loved in return, with no b*******. I don’t know what to do, how to handle these feelings.