I am definitly going to fail this semester. I have hardly done anything at all in my online class and its going to be over in two weeks. In addition to that I haven’t showed up to my in-person class in a week and a half, nor have I contacted my professor and I don’t know why but I cannot be bothered to advocate for myself. I felt so completely indifferent until now and my mental health has been sharply declining in general since I came here. I am so unhappy with life and I know my depression has been coming back ever since I got here. I don’t know what I want to do with my life and nothing sounds appealing. I lost all of my friends, my grades aren’t good like they were in highschool (not because the material is more difficult, just because I don’t care), and my physical health is deteriorating. Nothing I do works and I dont enjoy living. The only thing I really enjoy is driving and the satisfaction doesn’t last long after I get out of the car. I had been genuinely better for a year and now its almost all gone. I just want to leave and never come back but I don’t know where and I don’t know how. I’ve had to look after myself for almost my entire life but for some reason I just can’t do it anymore.