I miss him, but he fucked me up badly. I haven’t been able to feel the way I did for him since, I loved him with all of me. Even though all we did was argue when he cheated every time and constantly have conflicts I would hold onto the good times. I would be lying if I said I don’t hold onto them anymore. The way he looked at me, held me, loved me, everything he did made me fall more in love. But now I’m alone. Even though it’s been a long time even just seeing him makes me miss him in my life. I dream about him every night and I just wonder why couldn’t he have been a slightly better person for me.