i’ve had the worst week of my life & i really needed , well no , wanted his company but after months of basically talking to a wall , i think im finally starting to not care , it hurts to admit that im starting to not care but it’s for the best ,, he would always body shame me & cheat on me , ignore my texts , give me one word replies after i would spam him , never try to see me , js wanted me for his s***** pleasure , i somehow think i’d rather be in a mentally abusive relationship than to be alone which is the sad part , i truly know i don’t love him anymore ,, but for some reason i’m not ready to let him go , i think i’m just gonna keep talking to him & letting him treat me the worst till i realize i want absolutely nothing to do with him then i’ll cut him off because some part of me knows i’m not ready even though my heart knows i should let him go .