I’m in so much pain, all the time. I feel alone. Even when I am with other people. And I know that my life is shity, that it should not look like that. I know that I’m wasting my time. This stage in my life shouldn’t look like this. I shouldn’t be like that. Can you imagine? I don’t have any energy, any power, nothing. When it’s weekend and everyone meets up with people or at least study, I lay in my bed just doing nothing. Sometimes I don’t even have energy to open my phone, brush my teeth. I want to die if this continues. And I’m very close to doing that, because it’s been going on for at least a year or two. But at the same time I don’t want to hurt my family. My mom wouldn’t forgive herself for not knowing what I really feel and not helping me. I frel stuck in an eness loop. Wake up, go to school, come back home, go to sleep. And that’s it, all the time. Why me? Why?