i have a really weird and complicated love-hate relationship with some of my closest friends lol. most of the time, they’re all i’ve got, so i enjoy being around them. they make me laugh and have a great time. however, on other days, i feel so s*** just thinking about them. while they’re enjoyable to be around, it’s never enough. especially this one specific friend. i always feel so emotionally drained after they talk about their problems to me. however when we’re out, it’s always so delightful to talk to them. i desperately need someone to talk to. whether if it’s about my mental health or just in general. i just need someone who can just take all of my s***.

another friend of mine, lets just call her scarlett, is one of my bestest friends. i’ve known her for the longest time out of everyone else in my friend group. i can talk to her about nearly everything and anything. almost. by now i would’ve thought that she could handle me, but clearly not. i think she finds me annoying at times. i feel like i can’t really talk to her emotionally, especially since she’s ok in her mental state, meaning she can’t understand what i actually feel. i can’t trust anyone and it f****** hurts. i want to end it all, although i kinda doubt they’d give a s***. lol. really sorry if i annoyed anyone, after all, it is a confession page.