You may think im a monster. (I deserve that) but did anyone ever think that i am severely misunderstood. Im tore up about all the pain. Are you just going to punish me forever? Maybe its too painful to be friends with me.(I understand it tho) (I hope i can change) I cant handle hurting people and the bitter self hating loneliness.
It’s not fair that my brain works like this. This is why I don’t respect or believe in “God.” How could I?…
I feel ashamed everyday.
I know it’s MY problem.
I get to think about it all the time.
So you do you, and I will do me.
Thank you for letting me vent. 😇