i secretly lowkey hate my family. my oldest brother, who is almost 17, has been acting really rude towards me and i dont know why. he always hates on me for the stupidest things, and says things like the world is gonna end, because of the ukraine and russia situation. all he does is say negative s***, and mumbles under his breath. he tells me to shut up and always tries to ignore my point in an argument.he pisses me off, and i want to kick him in his face to kick his ugly a** attitude out of him. not to mention he called me fat. best brother ever😍.my dear old dad, how dad i forget. he’s sort of like a lion, i guess. when he’s calm, he’s passive, like a cub. when hes angry, hes like a full grown lion, ready to strike, scary, and threating. not to mention, i sometimes here my twin brother screaming because of how hard he hit him. dad of the year tingz🤩🤩. my mom. shes like a snake. some of them are passive. others are venomous, and will destroy you until you are nothing. i think there is at least something wrong with my brain, i know i dont think right. i felt depressed for 2 months straight, and my dad saw my arms, and called me crazy, and said i needed to be beaten. theres no way i could ever get tested for any mental disorder, my dad would call me crazed, and my lovely mother would do so, just behind a bunch of b*******, like ‘i care for you, and love you, but are you sure about this?’ but, i know i cant fully blame them, because the only reason they are like this is because of their parents. my mom’s dad is an alcholic, and was abusive to her siblings, and his new wife. i dont know much about my dads side, only that his dad died when he was young. my dad threaans my twin brother on a daily basis, practically. in my house, sadness, anger, and practically any emotion besides devout respect for my parents is allowed. does dad see himself as God? why does he act like this. this is outrageous. if i have to question wheter my parents love me or not, if i cry myself to sleep because of my family, if i become depressed because of my family, the blame is on them. and last, but most importantly, my twin brother. i respect him above all in my house. i do feel like i am a bit mean to him though. i want to be everthing but. he is a star being losing his light by a black hole. yet i still see a smile on his face. he still laughs, he still feels happy. he is awesome. we may not get along all the time, but i still think hes brilliant. my lovely family summed up.