i Cut myself and no one knows besides my friends and they don’t help. They haven’t told anyone. Im broken. Im so socially awkward I cant even call a suicide hotline. And I can handle relationships because I get abusive and lose me nerve fast. Im only 13. I don’t want kids because I don’t want to hurt them I just want to die. Like every second of everyday I think about bringing a blade to a vain or taking a handful of pills. Im not proud of anything. My brothers gf just had a baby and don’t even want to look at it but I set it as my phone screen so I remember not to hurt him. I think id finally kill myself if I hurt him