To T:
I know this may seem random…it’s been a while since we last spoke. Ever since graduation night, I suppose. I just have always wondered…In all of the four years we went to school together, did you have any feelings for me? Like, what did you think of me? From the moment I first saw you, I had feelings for you. I say this, but I am not going to say that it was love at first sight. That sentiment always seemed stupid to me. (Along with the whole “getting married to your college sweetheart” type thing too.) Anyway, I just wonder all the time if we could have ever been a thing. You sent me mixed signals sometimes but I couldn’t reciprocate them because either you or I were involved with someone else. However, I want to know now what you think of me? Do you like me? I like you. I’ve liked you for roughly 4 years. I just can’t move on even though I want to. I just don’t know if things between us will work out. I almost wish you’ll say you didn’t ever like me. Then, while I am crushed, I can move on without thinking too much. Living far away from you helps, but distance can never quell my thoughts of “what if…?” Please, just reject me so I can move on. Reject me. Please.
– Your admirer