I have been so depressed lately. I break down into tears at least twice a day. I feel lonely and unloved. I do not have anyone in my life that makes me feel safe for me to share my thought. I wish I had close family that supported me. I feel like I am 16 years old trapped in a 27-year-old body. I have not fully healed from the bullying I experience as a teen. I lack self-confidence and self-esteem. I have finally decided to see a therapist. God willingly, It will help with my mental health. I have been to this place before. It feels dark and hopeless. I pray God gives me the strength to pull through. It feels like the world is against me. I know that I should not feel down since I have my basic needs. However, living without purpose is feels empty inside. Life without God, love, family, friends, and happiness is not worth living. I know God has forsaken me. He has abandoned me and left me. Who am I to ask for his forgiveness? I know that he knew before I was in my mom’s womb. He loved me not because I was good but he created me. He wanted the best for me. It seems like he is far away but he is always close by. His love shields me from the darkness. His presences give me calmness. Christ died for me to show me that I am worthy of his love. He protected me through my childhood to adulthood. He still looks out for me. He knocks on my door every day. He offers his love to me. I am the one who refused him. Abandoned him, hated him, ignored him, pushed him out. My Lord, my savior, can you hear the cries of this lost soul. My creators, my father in heaven, can you hear my cries. This lonely soul calls out to you. Please guide me. please cover me from the darkness. please show me your ways.