hey, i am an average teenager, i was born and brought up in a nuclear family. my family consisted of my elder sibling, my mother and father. my dad is a nice man and i envy him to a certain extent. the only bad trait about him that springs to mind is the fact that he is a perfectionist with an anger problem. in my early years i was slapped and screamed at allot. in Asian countries, i believe that it is normal for parents to do so. i am thankful that y parents did so as i believe that i have turned out much better then the others my age. things apart, because of the beatings i received from my dad, i did develop a fear of him that blocked my ability to communicate with him freely. i always thought that he might get angry if i told him a certain thing, even though i knew that he has remarkable amount of knowledge and he does not mind sharing it. along with that as i grew apart from my father, i did have my mother by my side that provided me with care and affection whenever i have witnessed stuff that has shook me to my bare bones and memories that are and will stay fresh in my mind no matter what year it is. i have been a witness to a lot of domestic violence and was unable to do anything about it. i do not blame my father for the things he has done/did. i respect him no mater what and accept him the way he is. i agree that life is not perfect and that i should and i am grateful for the things i have. i just wish that things were better. dad why cant you see that your actions are tearing the family apart, i know you love us and so do we but why cant you change? i feel so bad that i moved away from home as i feel that that was an escapist move of mine sugar coated in better opportunities and brighter future. being the socially introvert person i am i am never able to express my deepest and most troubling problems to anyone. i am not a coward and would not take a foolish step to take my life as that would just result in me giving up. i want to be a better man, i want to have a better future and be sumthing that is better that what i haev been through. the other thing that bothers me is that my father is currently un employed and i fear that it might aggravate his actions. i do not share this stuff with any of my supposed friends as i fear that it will/might change their opinion towards me. i wish things get better and i will work my self to make them better. i wish no body goes through the s*** that my family has been through, it includes all 4 members. i know i am not the worst case and people have bigger problems, but for me this is the worst thing imaginable maybe because i am living life in a fable town.
