im in love with another guy. i met him the summer of 9th grade. we had so many memories together and not only did i fall in love with him, but i fell in love with his family to :(. he cheated on me with his ex. but for some reason i still love him. he came back and introduced me to his friend which i got with to get back at him (immature i know). i don’t think i ever loved the guy and im still with him today being almost a year. im not happy with him and i often think about my ex and what would’ve happened if i just decided to keep the peace. but i do hope he’s growing. it’s been 2 years since i’ve dated him and god do i still love him passionately. i cry thinking about him. i was at my peak happiest with him. but now i’m spiraling in a relationship i don’t wanna be in and im scared to be alone.