I hate that I still kind of idealize people and don’t know how to fully be myself around people I really like and/or admire. I’m quirky af and it leads me to be hypersensitive to classroom settings, judgy people – like everyone judges so it’s literally all the time. I just want to learn and be comfortably myself all the time 🙁 It’s gotten a lot better, but it’s held me back so much in life. I’ve always been bright, friendly, and told I seem educated even though I haven’t been able to finish university. It s**** because I know there’s no one to really blame but myself at the end of the day. With each and every passing season, I’m only getting older and time is running out to be ambitious about my goals. I know life is a journey and we should enjoy it and not compare our lives and accomplishments to others, but it’s human nature to.