I am going f****** crazy, my boyfriend hates me and I love him. I always think about him and he always rejects me. He hates me for sure. I am tired of crying every night thinking about the fact that he is so distant and I keep throwing up because of the stress it gives me. I could give my life to him, I could sacrifice everything I have just to be with him but he keeps rejecting me again and again. I am always trying my best to understand him, why he suddenly changed, but I am really tired. It used to be utopian and idyllic. I can’t enjoy life anymore I just want my boyfriend, I miss him all the time I am so hurt, I want to die I am tired of everything I am tired of life I just want my boyfriend to live me again. I threw up 5 minutes ago because of a breakdown related to him. I am so tired I just want him to like me again, he is so distant. I really just want to let myself die
