I have depression but no one knows about it. I tried to tell ppl around me about this problem and they all thinks that im seeking attention.. lately its very very bad. I want to kill myself but why does funeral have to cost so much.. this pandemic has greatly affected my family financially. I know they couldn’t afford to pay for the funeral now. I dont want to be selfish so i cant kill myself but instead im torturing myself by acting and hiding behind a mask. I am barely hanging on rn