I dont know, I have done that at a few points in my life, cut everyone off and “disappear” (not really, I am always around, I mean ghost) and actually I found out later, years later it was good choice. I mean I did it for reasons, multiple real reasons, over many years which added up to me saying to myself “you know what? I think I am done here… I will move onto to other things and try to do better for myself…” and that’s what I did. I became elusive and it wasn’t even me that started the ball rolling either, people went off in different directions, not BECAUSE of me, it’s just life and that’s when I took the opportunity to work on myself and not put anything into any of that at least at that point in time, for more than on real reason at some point in our history, which was over a decade. Maybe even 15 years. Without saying it. And I had people trying to get a hold of me, during that time, I allowed it, but never initiated it or tried myself. Then eventually some of them went on and gave me more reasons to keep going. While some actually prove to me that maybe I should close it up completely to them. Ran into one yesterday.

But yeah. It feels good to let go, truly. I dont mean just say it without the true need to break free and stay away for whatever reason, reasons you have, half assed and then cave a few months later. It’s not easy at first but once you find at least some of what you’re looking for and you don’t need anyone it’s a good feeling. You can sort through the s*** at that time and choose to get back into what you want or feel maybe deserves it.

The only one saying “No don’t do it… it gets better…” are the vampires. They need you for something. Personally Incan tell who is genuine and just wants me to hang out or visit because they want me in their life and the ones who want something out of me and I don’t even mean money or superficial things. Maybe I attract good people. Attractive people. They don’t. I don’t like being used for that. I avoid that type of vampire.

So if you want to cut out everyone, don’t let anyone discourage you from it. I had some good adventures during those soul searches. I had a few bad ones too, but plenty of good ones and one thing is for sure, at least from my perspective. I think I have done better for myself without them, than I did or would have with them. I believe that. It made me stronger. Turned me into a man.