life is unpredictable, its beautiful and scary at the same time. In life there are moments where everything just seems perfect and the other moment it just flips upside down. In my life, my breakup really changed me, made me a timid person tbh. it was a teenage love, and for the most part of the relationship I was giving more than I was getting from him. the 24/7 disrespect, infidelity, name calling, ugh! it was toxic as hell. I always knew that I do not deserve any of it. But I guess my love for him turned against me because I stopped, just stopped making myself a priority. I was accepting everything he was putting me through in a HOPE that one day its all gonna be okay. But HOPE does not work that way. Fast forward! He broke up with me in 2019 and yes I do not hate him, I guess I can never hate him because he was my first love, but I don’t love him either. I am in a place where I am doing me right now. I am in a relationship with this amazing person, he’s kind, loving, caring and willing. I love him and honestly I do not want to lose him. but I feel like my past relationship made me too fearful that i can never have a happy ending in my love story. And today thru this confession I want to release this toxic and negative intention, I KNOW I DESERVE A HAPPY ENDING IN LOVE! I KNOW THAT I AM GONNA MARRY THE MAN THAT GOD THINKS IS RIGHT FOR ME. I AM FREE OF ALL THE PAST RELATIONSHIP TRAUMA AND TOXIC FEELINGS. Thank you!
