I’ve been having conflicting feelings of being a mother. I have a beautiful 10months babygirl and she is the joy of my life. But at times, I feel I’m not good enough as a mother. Family and friends will praise the father. “Oh she really loves her dad” “Aww, daddy’s girl” “Her father must be tired looking after her in the morning while you have to go to work” “Ah she looks exactly like her father”
I feel so useless. Am I looking for praises and compliments? No. I just want acknowledgement. Why am I being treated differently? Did i not carry her for 9 months? Gave birth to her? Bathe her, feed her. Did I not carry her when she cries, sing to her when she sleeps, wakes up in the middle of the night when she cries? When do I get to have some time for myself? When I do, people make me feel guilty for letting my husband take care of her. But what about the times I had to take care of her while her father spends time with his friends? When do i rest?
It feels lonely. And I don’t know what to do.
