Hi, I don't know if I can explain this is a way that doesn't sound weird and off, and I apologize if this makes no sense whatsoever. So I'm a 16 year old

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Hi, I don’t know if I can explain this is a way that doesn’t sound weird and off, and I apologize if this makes no sense whatsoever. So I’m a 16 year old girl. And I’m a size 0. My friends constantly tell me how lucky I am that I’m so skinny and all that and I always tell them the same thing “Skinny isn’t gonna get me anywhere.” But then I go to the mall, and the size 0 pants no longer fit, and I have to try on size 1. And, god, I know I’m skinny. I know I don’t need to lose weight. But I feel so utterly disappointed when I have to wear size 1. Which, I know, should not happen. I get told I have an amazing body by my friends, almost every damn day. But every day, I walk into girls and see girls who have thinner legs and then I tell myself, I need to work out. I need thinner legs. But I don’t need to lose weight, and I know that. But I can’t stop thinking this way.
I’m never hungry anymore. I barely eat lunch. My mom notices, my friends notice, people notice. But it’s a phase. I want it to be a phase. I’m not sick. I don’t need help. But I am never hungry. And when I am, I barely need any food to fill me up. I get stomach aches when I eat normal sized meals.
And I know; this isn’t right. But I don’t know what to fix, if there even is something to fix.
“Oh, you’re so pretty. You have an amazing body. You’d get any guy.” Well then, where is he? Never had a boyfriend before.
“You’re gorgeous. Any girl would be jealous of you.” I don’t see anyone showing any signs of envy.
“Wow. You are really, really pretty.” Says who? You? You have to, you’re my best friend.

Nobody walks up to me in the hallway and tells me I look pretty.
That’s a job left to my friends.
Nobody tells me I’m fun to be around.
That’s Grace’s job.
I may be smart, but guess what?
Lexi, yeah, she’s smarter.
I may look good. today
But Mansi? Her makeup is flawless, she doesn’t have bags, and her hair looks great.
But I’m a size 0. My friends tell me I’m pretty. My teachers tell me I’m smart. My parents love me to death. I have a house, food, and clothes.
I should be happy. I have amazing friends, amazing family. I have so much, but I still feel like I’m missing something.
I never see who my friends and family see.
And I don’t know why.
And that scares me. So bad.
And I have no idea what to do either.
I don’t understand what’s wrong.

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I’m 14, me and my homies were playing at the court when this 30 like dude cuts in and forces himself into our game. My uncle saw him and came over to like get him off. He pissed off my uncle and got his a** kicked in front of us, my uncle stripped him down to nothing and forced him to j******* and c** then told him to get the f*** off and don’t come back. Dog that dude was humiliated in front of like 20 of us kids.

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