Siren, heres a post i made earlier in case you missed it

I know you probably dont care and youll all laugh at me and tell me to kill myself. I have no one else o talk to about this. Im scared. I’ve been a closeted non binary since I was a child, but I didn’t know until recently. When I was a kid, I used to play with my moms makeup alot and only stoppe wheni was shamed for it. my first anime and manga was ranma 12, because i loved the idea of being able to be a boy or a girl whenever i wanted. In video games I play male and female characters equally. I played with barbie, stuffed animals, hot wheels and action figurrds as a kid. I liked sailor moon and dragonball z. i like mage robes as Casual clothing. I think it shouldn’t be weird for guys to wear rouge, concealer, and eyeliner. I hate the bags under my eyes but I’m too ashamed to put on makeup. I’ve always loved hair metal and 80s fashion and androgyny and tight leather pants. i want to wear tights. Ive always hated traditional gender roles. I like baking and fixing s*** and driving fast cars, but i hate sports and manual labor and office work. As a kid i always wanted a princess cut and now my hair is down to my belly button I like being a caretaker and a homemaker. I really like s** and im a freak but i like cuddling and romance just as much. Ive been transphobic of trans women for years. I was good friends with and attracted to a gorgeous closeted trans man in highschool and never felt weird about it. i always knew i was off but ive never been seually attracted to anything with a p****. I like butch girls just fine though. Wejust called em tomboys gowing up. Girls that could hang with the boys. Growing up, everone acted like being gay and being feminine were the ssme thing. Everyon thought i was gay in high school but im not gay, and im no catty trans woman. I don’t want to cut off my p****. I like my p****. Im a very tolerant person. But I was trans phobic of trans women because I was in denial about being nonbinary but I knew I wasn’t a trans women so I acted like a shitter. One of my favorite influencer s came out as nonbinary and I did some research and realized I’m an idiot. Tell your friends I’m sorry T