I wish I could truly confess. I wish I could just truly lay it all out for everyone to see, the gory truth of my life.

But, I can’t. I can’t scare you people. I don’t want you to feel bad. I am freaked out to even submit this.

My mom is racist.

My parents are anti-mask and have been from the start. I could go on and on. I don’t know where to start. My pain is too difficult.

I need something to eat. I am hungry as f***. My body is physically weak from lack of activity and from eating nothing but peanut butter sandwiches and cereal for the last like 7 years.

I feel good when I eat meat, but my parents just don’t want to keep enough meat around for me to eat.

It is like, we have meat, rejoice, I get to feel a regular human being for 3 days. And then the meat is gone and it is straight to the dungeon again. I wish I was better with language so I could paint the picture with words that I see in my head. Even that sentence doesn’t make any f****** sense.

I was a vegetarian strict for like 10 years. Mistake, for me at least. Maybe some people can hack it, but I did so poorly. But, like I am not into cooking, and making elaborate healthy meals with like multiple sources of protein and fiber and different vegetables.

I would make eggs. And toast. That is about as far as I would get.

Anyhow, it is 8:30PM, and I have only eaten a peanut butter and honey sandwich, and a protein bar today.