I wonder how the earlier-mentioned vulnerability known to women especially during oral s** done onto them meshes with, say, the also-earlier-mentioned 14yo who confided about sending nudes online. This is deep, I know, but there does surely appear to be some common vulnerability there.

And I wonder, if, kids who are NEVER exposed to (so many of the usual environmental factors that too often impact North American childhoods, such as substance abuse, physical/s***** abuses, financial hardships { I.E. having to move from place to place as a child, with parents barely able to stay one step ahead of homelessness} ), are just naturally less likely to be(come) the 14yo’s sending n*** pictures online, and MORE likely to be the women who are more fully capable of presenting their vulnerability to their partners during oral s**?

Granted, SOME women who are often the “multi-orgasmic” ones, lean away from oral s** merely for their being too sensitive there (and there is a clear tie-in with their abilities for multiple orgasms from i**********)… but far too many others evolve to become FEARFUL of taking that oral RISK… even though it’s ME, who just loves the chance to witness and cherish that vulnerability they show in the process.

Sadly enough, humans cannot be subjected to one path of upbringing and then truly sample life after the opposite path of upbringing WITH ALL OTHER THINGS BEING EQUAL.

So how does a very genuine woman overcome, say, having been mentally, physically, and perhaps s******* abused by, say, a stereotypical-in-that-role stepfather? Is she destined to keep herself guarded for decades, or even a lifetime, and not get to learn the rewards to be felt when merely trusting somebody (in many aspects)??

Along with such early abuses, it is highly probable that with them, the young woman’s “picker” is broken, and in need of considerable repair beFORE she can hope to SELECT (with what are then her “limitations” where it concerns ID’ing worthwhile men)? Does she almost always then select another abusive A-hole, as a result of now strangely (and ‘normally’ – for that branch of normalcy) being DRAWN TO some prominent traits shared most visibly by abusive A-hole men?

Is that same woman destined to be ‘bored’ (at BEST) when with a decent man, for as long as she can stand her indifferent broken picker not feeling the abusive negative energy to which that picker is drawn?

There must be something *** over there *** on that opposite side, that brings SOME decent rewards in some way (even IF that way is akin to m*********** with something terrible, and recognizing that even something terrible gives at least SOME s***** pleasure, no matter the costs)

(compare with the phrase “live fast and die young” – is there some FULFILLMENT from the parallel “fast living” which life with a humdrum-seeming, ‘good’ man, cannot offer to such a woman?)

So then, the 2020 routine for a woman ‘recovering’ from such a past (which far too often contributes to her ‘present’ )… is THERAPY… but logically, the best way to make therapy WORK for you, is to ****TRUST**** the therapist with EVVVVVVVVVVerything… which brings a female ‘victim’ right back to the trauma/hurdle she has always known.

IF I were to go to therapy for some reason… I would instinctively and logically spill out everything… surely because NOTHING has ever happened to me that seems like emotional or physical abuse (nothing has made me ‘pay’ for expressing the true me). Though I don’t imagine women who have been victimized all their lives have that sort of a ‘playbook’ in the way of a first impulse upon stepping into therapy.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaand of course, a woman gets to therapy, and SHE cannot vault herself over the bar beyond which the therapist, for sensing he/she would be permitted/trusted to KNOW everything, would reach the point where said therapist could begin to do some good… so, possibly more for her own resistance, and not any ineptitude on behalf of the therapist, the woman remains unwilling to express enough OF herself in order for therapy to work as is idealized.

SO, indeed, a whole bunch of conundrums for multitudes of women who have been past abuse victims.

Is that ‘you’ ?? Are ‘you’ in a cycle of repeating the same abusive scenarios you’ve known since childhood? (even if at 14 you didn’t, or barely-did have the internet, and never got the idea to send nudes until you were well past that stage)

*** in a WAY… the added ‘vulnerability’ required OF you to avail your nether regions to my tongue… would make for an even deeper connection… and I’m still not the sort of a guy who would do anything but treasure the encounter.

It isn’t very difficult to scan an exposed female form and focus upon the most unique and eye-catching elements OF it, and everybody has a decent number of appealing physical traits that would be focal points during an intimate encounter.

(consider this odd-seeming tangent: )

In the Covid era, webcam girls have just multiplied exponentially with the world economy shrinking and very real people being drawn into such ‘work’ they can find online.

Compare your old high school classroom with today’s webcam world for a paragraph here. There were (boys, surely) who spent hours critiquing your appearance, and some of those boys you completely loathed because of the mean-spirited things they said. Consider, now, that today’s webcam world has evolved so much… with “real” human bodies (and not any longer just “centerfold” material)… and it arrives in a format wherein those guys who were saying mean things about your high school aged appearance… are NOW in OTHER webcam rooms watching the women they thought they should be watching, when instead they were seated behind you, in geometry.

If you have… (“knobby knees”) and (“eyebrows that are too thick”) and ( “{insert random self-perceived ‘flaw’ here}” )… the viewers watching YOUR would-be webcam of today are those who are there because they are DRAWN to your collection of flaws which creates the ‘character’ they sense in you when they found your webcam.

Webcamming is going great in the present because suddenly new societies all over the globe are now well represented on tens of thousands of webcams, each bringing more seeming ‘uniqueness’ to various societies all across the globe.

(now, getting back away from that tangent: )

CAN the (you) who was once the high school girl who was picked-on… perhaps exuding traits at the time which were dead giveaways that your homelife was far less than ideal… (perhaps with the assistance of therapy) evolve to assess that you are no longer the “victim” surrounded by high school kids (the meanest of which were likely victims themselves)… but that instead you are in the company of, and under the tongue of… one of the random viewers in a webcam setting who is in your presence entirely because he is drawn to you (***while at the same time, the would-be victimizers are off in some other ‘room’ somewhere) ???

**** This is the same guy from (possibly now 6 hours ago) who told of prefering to give rather than receive oral s**. (NOT that you should believe that, on a crazy confession website such as this one)