I don’t know what I’m thinking. I’m in the way which is definitely not a part of my future plan. When I completed my school that day I thought I will be able to manage my love, career, family very well. But it’s different now my family life was messy since childhood because my parents get arrange by my grandparents so they are totally different from each other which cause family violence it was hard when I was too young to understand those things but later it become part of my life cause of those things I always stay outcast from classmates because I never had happy things to share.As soon as I completed my school I thought now I can do the earn by myself then everything gonna be normal. On my job I get into my first relationship but that was misunderstanding , we were good friend but we thought it’s love , it’s become clear after some time but my breakup help me to glow up , the results of my breakup a new pretty girl who popular in boys on my second job. I got bored with boys , everyday I got new confessions from unknown person every time so I choose someone to be my friend cause he is the only person who confess his love while holding my hand , I feel his sincerity later I told my family about my relationship because I don’t want to cheat them. This is my biggest regret of my life because this thing become huge issue on my family cause my parents thought I lose my virginity but it’s not truth I know I was in relationship but it doesn’t mean I’m brainless but definitely there is no way to prove them. Now I’m such a spoiled brat in their eyes who always flirt with boys but the fact is I don’t even bath for 2 days regularly how can I impressed anyone at this state and for whole day I’m always busy with dramas ,also I don’t have any social media account now. I just have dream to go abroad to do job because if I stay here they will get me marry but getting a passport is huge issue for me also I don’t have enough money. My life is messed now . I’m not able to do well in my career, love and family life.
These things are out of my reach
But I don’t why my heart still says I will do something amazing one day.
I also got crush in Chinese actor li ge yang. I don’t know it’s love or affection. He is rising star so he didn’t have enough social fame after know that I want to support him and send him the letter but I can’t find address and anything about him.
I don’t know much about him but I want to know , I’m easy to get crush on someone but this is my first time to think for sending letter so obviously he have something special I want to support him as a friend so he can do much better but we are so far away I’m in india and he is in china but li ge yang don’t worry this komal will support you one day by staying at your side. I will be your cheerleader 😍