I am extremely afraid of death. About 4 years ago, I lost my faith because I was certain that God couldn’t love me. At the time, I thought it was because I was a bit bi-curious. But now I just don’t think He’d let me into heaven because I NEVER do anything FOR Him. He has no reason whatsoever to help me now. I’m afraid of dying because of this reason. It bothers me that we don’t know for certain about heaven and hell, or if I’m just wasting my time panicking over something that will be over the moment I die. People always tell me that I seem like a generally good person, and that I’ll probably go to heaven…But being previously religious, I KNOW man does not live by good deeds alone. And it still bothers me not knowing and not being able to know. I just generally avoid thinking of it because it gives me panic attack/anxiety attacks.