I wish I had more than love and my heart to offer my boyfriend, it hurts me that I lost everything when I was ill. I have a plan to rebuild my career and finances , I guess I just wish I was more established in most career goals. I just wish I had something to offer him . I think he wants to get married, but I can’t until I’m ready. I truly can’t until I also lose 50 more pounds. I really love him. I do not want to lose him .
