This may be crazy, but I really want to be an actor. Now I’m studying industrial engineering in one of the Southeast Asian countries. this is why I call it crazy stuff. why? cause I’m just an ordinary teenager who goes to college with a major that is burdensome to the brain and hope one day can move to LA in America to join an acting agency. It’s really crazy if you think about it, people around me will definitely think I’m crazy and have impossible dreams. but I’m sure I can make it happen. wish me luck. To be honest, I wanted to be an actor since I was little, but I took this major only to save my future, and of course with the hope of giving my mom a lot of money because she is a moneymaker (always think about money every time, but actually we already have enough money for my little family ). I don’t blame my mother for that. I feel happy if I can give my mother a lot of money. but my mother always rules my life. Honestly, over time my life feels like it’s not my life anymore. I can’t enjoy my life. I am not allowed to choose my life path. It’s true that my mother has good intentions, but she really controls it so I really can’t enjoy my life anymore. after college, my mother expects me to join the police. Yes, being a police officer in my country is very proud. but still, it was not what I wanted. With all my parents’ expectations of me, I couldn’t. sometimes I want to kill myself.