I fucked up my body for a passion that I can’t really pursue anymore, and once I’m out of college, it’ll be too late. I hurt constantly, and I’m starting to believe that my body will never feel really good ever again. Sometimes I just want to break part of my body, so that I won’t be able to feel that dull ache.
I fucked myself up for dance, and I’m not even very good. I don’t think I will ever make it to the championships. I feel like a complete failure.