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Honestly, I need to get this off my chest- but thinking about it it isn’t likely this will even be posted.
I’m the eldest sister of three, my two younger siblings are identical twins- female if your curious. We all dance and of course, go to school. In dance I suppose I am okay but no matter how hard I try I’m never going to be good enough to match my sisters of two years younger, they audition for loads of things and get in while what do I do? I sit home and read and write fanfiction. I feel like an embarrassment to my entire family, my sisters are always so self-confident and I’m left to shy away from any and every piece of attention I will ever get, which is none when it comes to my family.
I know I’m ranting but now I’ve started I just can’t stop!
No matter what I do, my sister always top me. I’ll get a 89 on my Modern Jazz grade 2 and they’ll get a 90 in Musical Theatre or a place in a Pantomime. I meet my baseline in RE, they beat theirs in German I just can never win! I feel all I have is fandoms and sometimes even then I feel I am nothing compared to those other fans out there, doing better than I and then I wonder why I’m even bothering? Why do I bother trying to impress my family, why do I even make an effort in school, why do I pay attention at dancing? No matter how good I do I’m never good enough for my family, and I never will be.
Is it wrong I often ponder on the thoughts of suicide? Of cutting and starvation? I’m too wide for dancing anyway really….
I imagine a world without me in it and really the only thing that keeps me hanging on if my fanfiction, who would be there to console my other upset friends online? Who would update my stories to which the readers ask for? That’s what is making my life right now. I don’t have any real friends, except the ones online, and my daydreaming is what keeps me happy.
I skip sleep and cut meals in hope someone will recognise me, that someone will realise the pain I am in but I know with ever fibre of my body nobody will ever care for me, I have yet to resort to physical violence but I know it’s only a matter of time.
I realise now how secluded I have become, I never admit to any feeling and everyday I feign a smile hoping they fall for it; they do. I don’t need anyone, I tell myself this all the time. I can get through this on my own, I don’t need anybody’s help but my own.
I’m so sorry for the rant guys- I needed that off my chest.

New Confession

ALIEN TRANSFORMERS ARE REAL!

The All-Spark was the cube that gave life to the first Dynasty of Primes and the Transformer race to work under the Primes. All the Primes died out under the Fallen Prime (who had his little episode in Transformers 2). Many years later, the Transformers discover the remains of the Fallen Prime, and the Fallen somehow influences Megatron into turning to the dark side. Thus, the Autobot vs. Decepticon war.

It was known that the Primes could move back and forth in time, which is a product of the All-Spark and Sentinel Prime’s Space-Bridge (which makes an appearance in Transformers 3). Well, I propose that humans created the All-Spark somewhere in the future, and at some point, Cybertron got teleported several millenia into the past. The All-Spark itself got teleported back to Earth several million years in the past, where it lay for a long time until Megatron found it in Transformers 1. The prequel establishes that the Transformers had been looking for the All-Spark for millenia, so here’s the timeline we have relative to present Earth day:

4 Million Years in the Past: The All-Spark and Cybertron get teleported to the past. The All-Spark lands on Earth, and all the Transformers begin looking for it.

Some Point in the Past: Megatron finds the All-Spark but gets frozen in the ice

Some Point in the Past: In Transformers 2 it was established that Autobots had been hiding on Earth for a while, probably just not knowing where the All-Spark was but waiting to find out?

Present Day Earth: Events of Transformers 1 unfold when Decepticons land on Earth and Blackout attacks the military base in Qatar. Cue the events of Transformers 2 and 3.

Future: At some point in the future, humans had advanced far enough to create the All-Spark to give life to their mechanical creations.

A human-made All-Spark would make sense because the All-Spark had “unknown origins” anyway, so let’s fill in the gaps. Transformers and the All-Spark have to be manmade because they wouldn’t be so comfortable interacting with human machinery and resembling humans. The All-Spark, which gives life to machines, would hypothetically not be able to interact with human technology if it was made by some other alien race. It would only be able to interact with that alien race’s technology, because we can’t assume that another alien race serendipitously made circuit boards and computers in the same exact way we did.

This theory came from noticing how humanoid Transformers look. In the Michael Bay films, the Transformers are designed to resemble humans. They walk upright, have four limbs, and have working eyes/mouths that move when they talk. Functionally, there isn’t even a reason for their mouths to move. Can’t they just use speakers?! For that reason, we can assume they were made to resemble humans. Again, no other alien race would serendipitously create humanoid-looking organisms that look the exact same as we do. Just because we walk upright and have four limbs doesn’t mean any other race needs to.

In conclusion:

Humans created the All-Spark, which gave life to Transformers. The Transformers fought and utilized the All-Spark’s ability to teleport, sending everyone 4 million years into the past.

Feasibly, if an alien race created the All-Spark then it wouldn’t be able to interact with human technology, because alien technology probably doesn’t work the same at all.

Transformers are made to resemble humans because they’re manmade, otherwise they wouldn’t need to move their mouths to talk. You say, “Well that’s just some CGI magic!”. I say that’s evidence. An alien race probably wouldn’t look exactly like us, so how would they know to make Transformers look exactly like us?
Leo spitz
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