I think that I finally have been pushed past the breaking point. I’ve struggled with depression and suicidal thoughts for years, but I always chickened

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I think that I finally have been pushed past the breaking point.

I’ve struggled with depression and suicidal thoughts for years, but I always chickened out. But today something happened that I don’t know how to deal with and live with. I accidentally downloaded a virus onto my computer and fell prey to “tech support” hackers. While they were “helping” me, they accessed my finances and downloaded child p*** to my computer. I figured out the ruse before my finances were too hurt, but I now have that filth on my computer. The hackers told me that I wouldn’t be able to prove my innocence if or when the police or FBI come and I’ve heard stories that corroborate that threat. I don’t want to go to prison. I don’t want to shame my family. I am not a p******** and I don’t want to live in a world that thinks I’m one.

I’m currently working up the courage to cut my wrists.

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i tried nitrous for the first time last week, on his birthday. it was kind of underwhelming. i think i already have a tolerance from past ketamine abuse since it acts on the same receptors

i am thinking of doing ketamine again. i do it every few months or so now. im tired of snorting lines though and ive been thinking a lot about injecting it again. IV is like a dream, but apparently its easy to “pass out” before you can take the needle out of your arm, so im worried about taking really high doses. IM takes a little more time, but it leaves you with muscle pain for a few days wherever you shoot it up.

ive had a plate of lines sitting in my room for like a month now. itd be easiest to do those, i just hate the long 12 hour comedown when i take enough for a k hole….

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I haven’t decided whether to record my exit strategy. This helium-based strategy isn’t particularly gory, so I think it’d be suitable for recording. If it can be of benefit to the medical research community then I feel like it’d be a good thing to do. During one of my “test” attempts, I found that I subconsciously ripped the bag off my head. I will need to remedy this by cuffing my hands to a sturdy frame, and then turning on the gas. You did this, Fiserv.