“Love is the only way to grasp another human being in the innermost core of his personality.”
You’re always popping up. In places that you’ve never been. In my late nights when everyone is asleep. In my writing and crush notes. In my unspoken words.
You’re always popping in and out of my mind..always eager to show up when it’s not expected.
Always ready to mess with my heart.
But now I think it’s over. Finally. The pulling and the pushing and the pulling some more……. is over.
I can breathe now. For a while there, I couldn’t. I couldn’t comprehend that we had an ending. Because if it’s true love, it always finds a way to live, right?
And if it were meant to be, it would be.
But we aren’t…i am finally awake..Crystal clear than any of our breakups.
What we had was special. What we had was something that I will never forget.
But our desire was long gone. What we had is done. I don’t know why it took me so long for that to latch onto my heart.
Maybe I had to take so much time missing you, for it to really hit me. Maybe I had to take so much time writing about you, to get you out of my system….
To get the idea of you and me out of my head and my brain and my fingers…………..
Maybe I had to cry my eyes out for you, for so long, in order to finally get to this stage. This stage of acceptance. This stage of now knowing, that it’s done..it is done…
I am stronger than yesterday
I am not crying to sleep tonight
Please sleep early…
Snow ❄