Are you a woman? “allowed to win”? You need to be allowed to win?
Not many men would ever kick another man in the g*******. A woman or a b**** boy might. A little man.
Also, are you telling me you carry bear spray everywhere you go? I think that’s illegal and would likely be impossible to conceal. How do you know it would be just “a swing”? A swing? That doesn’t sound like much… A swing is kind of slow and predictable, avoidable. The way you say it it sounds almost slooooooooow mmmmmooooootttionnnnn. It’s civil. Honorable. A swing? Take a swing at you…. That’s not what I was thinking but alright… With a swing you might have time to draw your bear spray if you haven’t been arrested for carrying it as a concealed weapon.
It sounds like you really are scared of something. Maybe you should take that as a hint and be a better person? That’s the irony of it. You have the power get under someone’s skin. A person who is probably better than you are. They are well liked by many and I am sure it seems effortless when you look at it. while you need to work hard for it and you need to go as far as try to drag people down in an attempt to feel something. You need to be allowed to win, in order to win and even then, in the end, the big picture, you still don’t win. You probably lose actually.