I’m sure. Why the hell would you do that for HER? She’s alright…. Actually you know what, she is not even alright. She was ALRIGHT in 2001, but a serious b****. She can’t be much of a prize now. Stupid really. I would like to say, if she had just stuck with me, or came back to me fairly quickly when I started to fix myself, kept me sane, gave (and took) some support, we would have been gold right now. She drove me insane. She left me, and then drove me insane. I would like to say that, but she would be the tone to build a guy up and then kill him for the insurance. I would have been better off, much better off, had I stayed away from her. My life and myself would be much more than it is now. I don’t give a f*** about her now. Haven’t in some time. Not in a good way. I would never have participated in that. The flying monkey s***. That’s not worth anything.
And that’s the thing I just don’t see any reason to want to go back to anything, not just her. It’s just not one of those things I feel an urge to do. I have no desire for it.
People push for it in different ways, not just her, just not me. I don’t ever ouclsh for it. Ever. I’m just laying it down bluntly. I don’t really care to be around any of that s*** she associates herself with. Personally. And I don’t need to either. It’s not a conflict of interesting in my daily life. I’m either lucky or I’m around like minded people. That’s the way I want to keep it. That’s all weird s*** that I don’t have anything in common with and let’s be real…. As much as I don’t want to be around it, it don’t want to be around me either. I won’t have it. By “it” I mean any of it.
What I need is a woman who is not a loose cannon who discriminates to a point and at the same time, couldn’t be bothered to be so “adventurous”. Not a social justice warrior mentality. I’d be a prick anyway. You don’t want to be around me. She doesn’t. I don’t think I couldn’t be an a****** but it’s just because I don’t want to be around her or anything connected to her. I couldn’t be bothered. I don’t want to be there. You know what I mean? It’s almost impatience. I would rather be some place else. I don’t want to be there. I don’t take anything serious. I’m irritable. It’s distaste. I dislike. Not much could change that now. Its too late by about a decade. Times change. People change. I don’t want what I wanted then.
I am a straight middle aged white man, and I don’t care to be around that f***** s***. Any of it. That includes people In once knew. Maybe even called friend at one time.
