i would never be scared of you, no matter what you’ve done. in your drunken stupors you shared things you didn’t ‘awake’ want to share with me, you were just wallowing in your self pity. disgusting and evil, but those things don’t scare me, so you have quirks about you society feels are immoral and unlawful. those things are for you to deal with. i love you as a whole package and anything that made you this way and the things you’ve done made you who you are, so how could I hate them? i love it all sweetie. i want to contact you, but i likely won’t because i don’t like the embarrassment of having to come to your defense in the past, and having people tell me that you are not actually asking me to do this, so really it is a little stalkerish. a part of me doesn’t want to bother you if you’ve decided to break any ties we had. i’m sorry if this makes you mean, it’s definitely not why i do it. i would hope that i could only make your life better. it can definitely stop if you that’s what your psyche needs baby.