Like she clearly wants nothing to do with you bro. How the f*** did you convince yourself she’s secretly in love with you when you’re a creepy stalker and you f****** know it. Shes scared of you dude. You are a legit bad person. What could you possibly have to offer to her when she’s clearly so much better off without you. You need professional help. How many times are you gonna trip over your shoelaces before you tie them you dumb mother fucker? You’re just using her as an excuse to stagnate and in the process you’ve become a horrible abusive person. Youre just gonna wake up tomorrow and make the same mistakes you make every god damned day. You dont have the willpower to pull yourself out of this hole. God, i hate myself.