So today i gave up and took the step to seek help i had taken three days of insomnia without a single hour sleep. Moreso i think my sudden interest in trap music has worsened my depression. All this time i spent in bed just turning thinking with low mood. The last 2 years have not been easy for me last year i lost 3 people close to me due to cancer this year 4 more to covid. It has taken a toll on me. Forgive my outbursts and rants here.

I never thought id be on the other side of the consultation room. I hope ill get over the delusions and light phobias. I just dont want to touch