I think I’m going to relapse into self harm. I’m tired of feeling so awful all the time and cutting myself is the only thing that makes me feel better, its the only thing that ever helped. Its my body, so who the f*** cares if I self harm, its not their f****** place to tell me what I can and cant do to myself. The feeling of a blade in my flesh is the only f****** thing that I have, I cant f****** resist it anymore. I’m not going to f****** resist it anymore for people that don’t give a f*** about me.