How i wish i can die now.. its getting too much for me, i tried to stay positive but is useless, people always told just be positive and everything will go well.. That’s b*******. I had spent the past few years to pretend that things will eventually go well as long as i stay positive. but it turned out to be wrong. Here i am, at the junction deciding what i going to next, death was on top on my list, the rest was second.. maybe life will be better if i could just die.. but i dont have the courage to do so… instead, i move towards doing things that are harmful to myself, hoping that somehow it will lead to death.. People always said that people who committed suicide are cowards, because they gave up easily.. however do they understand what going on inside them, the amount of pain, stress and sadness that they are going through… life isn’t easy.. but it worst for people like me.. i hate it.. i do.. i really wish death will come easy for me..