I am deeply in love with a boy I’ve known for 10 years, and he has no clue. Its tearing me apart inside and the sad part is I can’t do anything about it. We dated for five days, he broke up with me because it was awkward. We were so close before, but now were slowly drifting apart. This really s****, and I have no clue what to do about it. I want to walk up to him and tell him everything. From that summer of 2009 where I knew I loved him. To young to know it, but I just knew he was the one. It feels like the earth stops moving when we talk it is just the two of us. Me and him. When he smiles I frown. I know he isn’t smiling for me. He was the reason that I smiled for so many years. Now he is the reason I cry. I cry because I love him so much it hurts to smile around him. I have no clue what I would ever do without him somewhat in my life. Love is hard to find but once you find it you want to yell to the world how you feel what you feel, why you feel that way. It’s hard knowing that when I get out of High school we may never see each other, our lives our so different. He’s 13 I am 14 . He wants to be a mechanic. or in the army. I want to be a Fire fighter. When I get out of high school I am moving to Canada for 3 months. I am not giving up that dream. He goes to my church and I only get to see him 3 times a week. We go to different schools. I am torn, hurt , confused. Most of all in love with him. I just want things to get better than they are now. Anything could happen. Just whatever does happen I want it to be for the best of both of us.
