In a week or so it will be my 10th wedding anniversary. Something I should be looking forward to but in all honesty is just another day. I no longer am in love with my husband while I will always love him, my truest deepest feelings towards him and any passion I once felt has gone. We should have ended our marriage a long time ago but I find it very hard to end it, and know that it would have to be that does. We no longer have s** regularly, months can go by, we dont kiss or hug or share our feelings or hopes and dreams. I dont know what a marriage is supposed to be, isnt about it nurturing supporting and loving each being invested in the other person, I dont feel that we have that anymore. It is really about the running of the house, mundane things and looking after the children. I wish someone could make the decision for me. I feel overwhelmed with the weight of the decision.
