I HAVE BEEN MARRIED FOR OVER 25 YEARS. MY HUSBAND HAS NOT BEEN THE GREATEST PARTNER BUT FOR SOME SENSELESS REASON I HAVE STAYED. HE HAS CHEATED AND SAID HE STOPPED. WE HAVE DONE COUNCELING AND IT HELPS FOR A VERY SHORT TIME.
THE CONFESSION I HAVE IS THAT I FOUND ALL HIS SECRET EMAILS AND HAVE BEEN READING FOR OVER A YEAR NOW. I HAVE FOUND OUT HE HAS 3 GIRLFRIENDS HE COMMUNICATES WITH. ONE HAS BEEN GOING ON FOR 18 YEARS. THEY MEET WHEN THEY CAN. ONE IS MARRIED AND I THINK HER OLDEST CHILD MAY BE MY HUSBANDS. SHE HINTS AROUND ABOUT IT BUT HE DOESN’T READ BETWEEN THE LINES LIKE I CAN. HE IS AN EDUCATED MAN BUT HE IS STILL DUMB. THE THIRD GIRLFRIEND LIKES TO CHEAT WITH MARRIED MEN. IT IS A JOKE AT HER WORK TO WATCH YOUR MAN.
SO WHY AM I STILL HERE. A VERY SMART LAWYER TOLD ME TO START HIDING MONEY. HE DIDN’T DIRECTLY TELLME THAT BECAUSE IT WOULD BE UNETHICAL. HE HINTED AND I GOT IT. SO NOW I TRY TO PUT SOME MONEY AWAY EACH WEEK WITHOUT HIM FINDIN OUT. WHY SHOULD I HAVE TO LIVE IN A SMALL APARTMENT BECAUSE I CANNOT AFFORD A HOUSE AFTER THE DIVORCE. WHY SHOULD I WORRY ABOUT MONEY?
SO THE DIVORCE COULD BE PUT INTO PLAY ANY DAY. I WANT TO TELL HIM ABOUT THE KID BUT I WOULD WAT SO I DON’T HAVE TO PAY CHILD SUPPORT.
I WILL HAVE TO BE CHECKED FOR HIV AND OTHER. I KNOW MY HUSBAND AND HE WOULD NEVER USE A CONDOM.
I SHOULD RECIEVE THE ACADAMEY AWARD FOR MY PERFORMANCE AND SELF CONTROL IN NOT BEATING THE S*** OUT OF HIM OR CALLING HIS GIRLFRIENDS HUSBAND. YES I KNOW ALL OF THEM PERSONALLY.
IN SOME SICK WAY THIS YEAR OF READING HIS EMAILS HAS MADE ME STRONGER. I NOW KNOW HE IS A LIAR TO NOT ONLY ME BUT TO THEM. I ALSO KNOW THAT IT WAS NOT MY IMAGINATION AND THAT HE IS TRULY AN A**.
I WAS JUST GULLIBLE. I KNOW MY SELF ESTEEM IS SHOT AND I HAVE ALONG WAY TO GO TO IMPROVE IT BUT I WILL.
NOW I HAVE TO DECIDE IF I TELL HIM ABOUT THE EMAILS OR JUST FILE FOR DIVORCE.
