Why am I so stupid? Of course you liked me but I was too naive and oblivious to your signs. I should have gotten the clue when you wanted to hear me say I love you. But I couldn’t say it because I tricked my mind into thinking I didn’t mean it and I didn’t realize how much you needed I hear it.
I wrote an one thousand word essay about that tight feeling in my chest, talking about my feelings for you.
Should I send it to you? Probably not.. I am 5 years too late.
But I’m still happy to be able to see you, even as a best friend.
It’s probably better to stay like this. If I’m your best friend we could do whatever we want to and still be close to each other.
I’d rather have my heart ache than loose you completely.