It was going great the first 2 years but now… It is truly a struggle. You used me and don’t even know it, you become more and more hungry for attention that I cannot give, I try and try and try to make this work but everything in me SCREAMS NO MORE. I want to remain friends but I know you’d never understand. You’ve stopped understanding a long time ago. You are in your own little world now, and I don’t want to be part of it anymore, but I’m scared to leave and scared of change despite the changes that happened. I’m struggling to do things but your pressure brings no help. Your encouragement only falls flat. I can’t trust you. I don’t see you right. I wish you would understand. The one time I was honest to you about everything, you spat it out and the pain stings like acid. It only seeps further as time goes on. I’m hurt, and I wish I had the true strength to either die or leave you. You’ve hurt me so much, and loving you hurts more. I loved the past you, and I still do, but who you are now is a total stranger.