I am suicidal depressed suffer from PTSD and I’ve started cutting again.. its been 5 years since the last time I did it. I just needed the mental pain to stop.. when my fiance found out how said “I dont think going to the hospital is the best option for you right now” and proceeded to watch his videos… I didnt do this for attention but I dont really think thats okay to do. To not take mental health so seriously and just treat it like another day. I keep saying I want to go but he acts like im abandoning him and my responsibilities and I feel far to guilty to hurt him to go by myself… I am a weak weak person..